Gotta try my luck here in Law School

It was May 20, 2013 when I stepped in once again to the old facade of the AUSL. Exactly a year ago when I first set foot there to take up LSAT. Law School had taken a back seat in my priorities way back in 2009 when Tope, my then beau now hubby, did not support my ambition. But right now, with him, I finally enrolled myself. Welcome to the new prosh. Welcome to the scary but fulfilling world of law School. Five subjects worth close to P36,000 excluding books & other expenses like travel, print-outs and case digests, I've invested my meager savings to this career which I have always dreamed of. One semester. I gotta know if this dream of mine is truly for me. I must know. I will stay as long as AUSL will not let me go. I will study as long as my pocket can fund for my schooling. I know in God's will, I can do this.

Then came orientation & first day of classes. I was shocked. June 8-9 was my first two days as an official law student and I really feel scared, nervous and excited at the same time. Scared because the pile of codals other students were studying really looked creepy, nervous because I am not sure if I can really be a diligent student again like during my high school & college days; & if my brain will function as needed, and excited because after four years of not taking chances, I am finally here taking the first step towards my life-long dream - becoming a lawyer.

Why am I here? Because I want to be lawyer. They look smart, dignified, neat & they earn big money. I gotta be a lawyer because this is what I had always wanted had finances not became an issue for my family before. After having a family of my own, Tope as my husband and Evo my first son, I had realized I need to prove myself more; that I am not what Tope says that isn't capable of making it there, and that I want my son to be proud of me that despite my humble beginnings/earnings, I still became a lawyer than he can be proud of. I want to make my parents and family proud of me too since my mama & papa were the first people who influenced me to dream of becoming a lawyer.

But can I really do this? last Monday evening we were given assignments for our second meeting in one of my major subjects, Constitutional Law I; a whooping 11 original cases to read in full with an average of 20-paged pleadings. I was again shocked. Can I really do this? I have to try...