Linkin Park was my high school hero!

While picking up our kids at prep school, I got a chance to chat with my guy classmate from grade school to high school. We both took a leave from law school to focus on our wee ones. He's still that funny and bubbly guy who's a good friend to everyone. We talked about the funniest and most unforgettable high school moments from gaming, booze, love teams or just them boys being boys. 

I kinda wondered why I didn't ever have any moment akin to that to which he bluntly replied, "Because you were a real life nerd since we're kids that's why you never had a love life back then. Hahaha!" 😋Ouchies. He went on to add, "Even in college, you were still a little nerdy that only the nerd ones would also pursue you." 😝 That's a little harsh but I'm not offended 'cause yes, I'm a nerd. In fact, I'm a proud nerd! 😁

I'm a proud nerd who's memorized every lyrics of my favorite rock band Linkin Park. I'm a proud nerd who didn't experience taming that raging teenage hormones similar to a cat in heat. I'm a proud nerd who would dump any suitor because none of them looked like Mike Shinoda or Jude Law (also because I find the idea of having a boyfriend in high school icky). I'm a proud nerd who believed in penpal writing. I'm a proud nerd who had her first 💔 because my Macedonian-Aussie penpal did not love me back. Yep, that was the high school me, and Linkin Park was always there for me. 

I actually have a song pick from their album for every mishap or happy moments I've had in my chaotic high school life. When papa punished me for refusing to attend their church service, I sang "Runaway" because at that time that's what I really wanted to do. Every time I get fed up of pleasing my parents who only see me as the family's black sheep despite my accomplishments, "Pushing me away", and "Breaking the Habit", comforted me. I remember repeatedly writing the lyrics of "Numb" from their Meteora album in my journal to deafen the sound of the skirmish-like homily at my parents' church while hot tears incessantly fall from my eyes. When I first felt infatuated at the tender age of 14, it was with an Engineering freshman, a guy who's 4 years older than me all because he was singing "In the End."😄 I never saw him again after our cotillion dance, 3 days after he sang M. Shinoda's rap part. 

I miss my old self - weird, reserved, full of teen angst, and just plain dorky. But who cares? I can still sing to the top of my lungs all the Linkin Park songs from my favorite album "Hybrid Theory." I'm a proud nerd who can rock Linkin Park songs like no one else can! 😉 BTW, I love Papercut, Numb, In the End, Breaking the Habit and Runaway.