Ours
may not be the perfect family or shall I say they may not be the
perfect parents, it doesn't matter. I still love them even though I
don't show it that much.
Being beaten as a child molded me to become a tough person. Being physically and emotionally hurt made me both part valiant and part coward. Part valiant because many times I ignore my family and appears intimidating. Coward because deep inside I still care but I'm afraid to show it. I care in ways like I tried to make them proud of me. I am selfish most of the time only because I want them to persevere. I want every one to strive for the best, same way I did when I was feeling down. I want them to realize that despite the problems we have, the only way out is to get up.
It hurts me when they are sad. It hurts me more seeing how difficult our predicament is; but I can't do anything about it. Showing sympathy will only make them take me for granted once more. Oftentimes, I can't stand my eldest sister. She is too arrogant and insensitive. She keeps boasting that she loves and cares for our family yet she can't stop being obnoxious even for once. Maybe, she just can't stand being intimidated by me as well.
I am writing this because she wants me out of the house. Nobody should be kicked out of the house unless that kin chooses to. No matter what heartaches, pains and problems he/she has done, family is still family. Sometimes, family just have to respect and understand their members.
Being beaten as a child molded me to become a tough person. Being physically and emotionally hurt made me both part valiant and part coward. Part valiant because many times I ignore my family and appears intimidating. Coward because deep inside I still care but I'm afraid to show it. I care in ways like I tried to make them proud of me. I am selfish most of the time only because I want them to persevere. I want every one to strive for the best, same way I did when I was feeling down. I want them to realize that despite the problems we have, the only way out is to get up.
It hurts me when they are sad. It hurts me more seeing how difficult our predicament is; but I can't do anything about it. Showing sympathy will only make them take me for granted once more. Oftentimes, I can't stand my eldest sister. She is too arrogant and insensitive. She keeps boasting that she loves and cares for our family yet she can't stop being obnoxious even for once. Maybe, she just can't stand being intimidated by me as well.
I am writing this because she wants me out of the house. Nobody should be kicked out of the house unless that kin chooses to. No matter what heartaches, pains and problems he/she has done, family is still family. Sometimes, family just have to respect and understand their members.
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