The Day We Found Out!

Bi just picked me up from work. I must admit, it was a stressful day after having paid the company's employee contributions for SSS, Philhealth and HDMF so my spirit's not high. He initially planned to grab afternoon snacks but I wasn't really in the mood. He then asked if I want to go somewhere but I refused going anywhere. I just feel like taking a rest. Out of the blue, he mentioned that he'll just buy a PT on our way home since my monthly visitor hasn't arrived yet. I simply replied, "No. We are both aware that you will again be disappointed." But my words of discouragement didn't stop him from purchasing that stuff from the drugstore. When we arrived in his place, he immediately ordered me to go to the blue house and get the test done which I reluctantly obeyed. I didn't consider the possibility that the result I was expecting would turn out to be the opposite.
It didn't take long for me to find that out. I already started crying the moment those two red lines appeared. Bi, who was waiting outside, frantically asked if I was okay. He didn't wait for me to come out from the toilet. When I opened the door and he saw me crying, he just ran past me with big smile on his face. He wanted to see the result himself. Upon seeing it, he knew he was going to be a father. I curled up the bed and continued crying. Bi, on the other hand, was jumping for joy. He kept shouting, "Yes! Yes! Nakatao rin sa wakas!" He was so happy that I felt guilty because I kept crying. How can I be happy when I know in my heart my life will totally change now. I started thinking about my family especially mama, her dreams for me now shattered. She wanted me to leave Mindoro for good and try my luck in Manila while pursuing Law. Meanwhile, I was thinking about taking up DPA in UP instead of Law after my MA here. (I was quite ambitious you see) Those hopes mama has for me will now diminish and I fear to see her heart breaking again because of me. These thoughts kept me shedding tears while he started calling his friends to tell them the news. After about 6 different phone conversations, bi finally sat down to comfort me. He said he doesn't want me crying because it might stress our child. He added that he/she is a great blessing and we should NEVER make him/her feel unwanted. He hugged me, looked at my then flat belly and put his ear on it, trying to hear if our young will pounce or kick.
I stopped crying, smiled and felt sorry for baby. Hurting him is something I would never want. I had my first check-up afterward, bought folic acid and ate Jollibee's meatballs for snacks. After all, we found out about it the first day those meatballs were served in all Jollibee outlets nationwide.:) (February 7, 2011 -- Monday, 3:30PM)

(April 29, 2012)